Samatha Lucia Belanger

Samantha Lucia Belanger
Aug 10 2006
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Brandon Mantobia
No you did not have any brothers or sisters .
I was only five months with you we not ready to be born you where born to soon I lost you
becuse of the friborids you did not have enoght room to grow any more. The day mommy lost you was
on August the 10th of 2006. It was the a relly sad day for mommy Samantha and my dream of been a
mom had goen again. I had lost one way back in may 18 of 2003. He or she would have been your big
brother or sister mom did not know what it was mom was just a know for a few weeks that she was
going to have him or her. Now again you where goen for ever to mom cryed alot and some times still
do i will never forget you my baby girl the pic mom put up for you when i set up this site for you
is me your mommy when when I had my first bithday and the others in the pic are gandma and
grandpa when they got married in March 1 first 1969 and the 2 boys are my 2 older brothers daniel
he was 4 years and Fernand was almost 3 years old. This year seeing my brothers who have they
kids here with them and you 2 are up with god lifestill hurt alot is not fair some times love you
Sam i wish you a Marry Chrismas today.

Mom and dad try for many years to have kids we found out way back i in 1988 mom was having
lots of pain. And when the doc and the doc did surgery and found out that i had endometriosis.
Your dad and me were told by the doc go home and have a baby and that will make it better we where
not ready to be parends then we only been married for not evern a year then and we had moved to
Brandon and so we still try to get pregant and took us tell 2004 April to get there mom was
findly there but the i lots your brother or sister just a few days after mom found out we were and
that relly hurt to alot mom relly want that baby but it was goen before mom could ever tell any one
the good news when i told ever one about it not good news it was sad news that it he or she was
already up in heaven.

Then we keep in trying some more was getting alot harder to try because i was getting sick
alot with the fibroids now that mom was told i had 3 of them growing in my uterus and the doc keep
on saying that it ok to still keep on trying to have a baby he awas saying it nothing to worrie
about and to keep on trying if you do the preagant the baby will be ok little did i know that it
was not ok and that why i lots you all becuase of the them doc telling me it was ok to have them
in there and you would be ok.

But the were wong and i lots you any how mom was relly sad when she was lots you it was the
hardes thing in the world i have ever doen was give bith to you and you where all ready goen. I had
to do all alone to you dad was not there at all for it he was to busy sleep at home and they where
calling him bye the time he came to be with me i had it was all doen and goen it was relly hard on
me i relly wanted you more then any thing i ever wanted my hole life. I have alway wanted to have
a baby of my own i have alway loved kids and being around them too that why mom is a nanney too and
relly missing the kids alot and cant wait to be working with them again. And that why mom left you
dad to he was not there for me when mom need him the most and that way mom moved and is living with
her family now too i need them to get me out because right now mom is relly sick and lots of pain
and cant have my own life any more mom had to stop working and can not take care of herself i need
help with that tell i am better too .

And mommy knows that one day when i am all better will be a mom ever if my hads to adopt one i
well i know they are many kids out there that need a mom or dad to love them to. Bye for now my
little one mom will be back to talk too you hugs and kissed to and we talk soon .

Hi they Samatha hope your ok Mom has good news for hunny you have a new cousin she was born on April
2 she was 6lbs and 8oz. Will thanks to mommy friends that to care alot abut me and That i lost you
and have been by my side to help me get pass your lost. Thare are Geoff, Damon, mom chat hubby and
Kam , Julia and baby Steven, sis Christien, Dave , Brad , Sandra , and all of my and all of my other
true frinds that i have out there. Sorry that i can not add of you on here . But you all know who
you all are and thank you to all of you i thank you from the bottom of my heart that i have all of
you here for me. In my life ever day mom dose not know where i would be if i did not have all here
for me all this time mom is still relly sick and it been way to long that mom has to be in so much
pain and to have family that does not care about me at all relly hurt a lot and will for the rest of
my life . I will not forget on how bad and not nice they are to me rub in my face that they have
kids now and i do not relly hurts i do not care about them if they want to be like that fuck off you
2 i have many friends that are here for me and always will be mom will go now love you my baby we
talk soon ok love mommy.

Will 2 years today you been goen i love you and always will hugs and kisses to you my little one
mommy thinking of you on this day and your in my heart take care and talk soon my will light a
candie for you to for today .